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Confessions of a Hidden Otaku


In this judgemental society, maintaining an image is crucial. Yet, with a personality of a hidden otaku, maintaining an image is difficult. I am usually described as quiet and reserved… until people get to know me. When they do, well, let’s say they might regret and wish they could turn the clock back, unless they are an otaku just like me. The fact that I’m not an isolated roamer in school makes me grateful that I have friends who accept me even after knowing my weird side.

I’m an insecure person. I think too much about things, whether or not they are important. I care far too much about what others think of me. Hence, I’m cautious of hiding my otaku self from people I just meet. When the doors of my actual personality are opened, there’s no escape. Sometimes I joke about how my friends have no choice but to accept my weird personality because we’re already such good friends.

I can’t watch an anime silently. I have a peculiar habit of pointing out the strangest things in an anime. It may be a romantic scene, but my mind would register something else… Something totally opposite and silly. For instance, when I was watching The Girl Who Leapt Through Time, there was a scene where Makoto and Chiaki were sitting and talking near the riverside. That reminded me of the Literary Girl scenes in Daily Lives of High School Boys. The atmosphere is totally off, but Hidenori often finds himself encountering the Literary Girl when he’s alone near the river. You can probably tell how random I can be now. It would be more sensible to compare the scene to Kimi ni Todoke since Kazehaya and Sawako have walked together in a similar scene. In fact, I did think of that when Chiaki was cycling with Makoto sitting behind him. (Riversides are often portrayed in anime, especially for shoujo anime.) However, the strange comments I make are the ones that make me… one of a kind, I guess.

Girl who Leapt Through Time

literary girlWell, not quite, but close enough.

Another eccentric characteristic of mine is fangirling over anime characters. I can’t help it. This is the main reason why I cannot watch anime in public. It’s an instant, fatal strike to my social life. (That’s pretty much an exaggeration.) During the rare cases when I do watch anime in public, I do my best to mask my facial expressions, to do my best impersonation of Kuroko’s poker face. This is not always successful, and I have been guilty of laughing out loud in public.

knb kurokoDid I say something? No, I’m just drinking my juice…


Author: Gwenice Gwee

www.thechaserofdreams.wordpress.com Chaser of dreams, epitome of oxymorons

13 thoughts on “Confessions of a Hidden Otaku

  1. We are so similar! I always fangirl over anime characters (guys mainly, though I do fangirl over girls who are super awesome!), but I never actually watch anime in public unless it’s Studio Ghibli. I rarely watch anime with friends. Yeah, I’m pretty quiet and reserved, too. It’s kind of like I’m in a shell and until I’m comfortable around the person/people, I won’t come out so I end up saying very little and smiling to the point where my face hurts. When I do come out of that shell, I’m like a totally different person. I’m crazy, fangirly, otaku-y, etc. Sometimes I’m a little bossy because it just feels so good to not be in the horrible shell.
    So really, we have a lot in common it seems! I’m glad to know I’m not the only one out there like me. I’m glad I’m not alone…
    Makino F. ❀

  2. Wow! That’s really nice to know. Glad to find someone similar too! Yup, you’re not alone. Thanks for taking your time to comment! πŸ™‚

  3. Wow I’m somewhat the same! I tend to smile a lot when I’m watching anime with people (a rare case) even though I don’t do that when I’m alone. Personally I enjoy the idea of people knowing I like anime however I feel the need to keep it to myself at the same time… It’s probably every otaku’s dream to be able to make anime jokes, and fanboy /girl in public without being scrutinized.
    I might have to write my own response to this…

    • I’m really happy to know another person who’s similar to me. I totally agree with your second last sentence! Plus, thanks for reblogging this post. It’s the first time anyone has reblogged my posts. πŸ™‚ Do write a response to this! I’m very interested in it!

      • Will do! Eventually… I’m trying to get a work ethic for writing (I read your “about”) but it is definitely difficult 😦 That’s why I respect people who can do this often – like you!

      • Thank you! πŸ™‚ I try to post once a week, but even so is hard especially with upcoming tests. That’s why I tend to keep drafts so that I have things to post when I don’t have the time to write new posts.

  4. What does otaku means?

  5. I’m the opposite XD I’m an otaku inside and out and I make sure people know it. I will fangirl whenever and anywhere. I usually don’t spend a lot of time at home so my anime watching and manga reading is usually in public. I don’t really find any embarrassment whatsoever, mostly because it’s a great way to make a lot of friends. Many a time, someone’s tapped me on the shoulder and ask if they could join in and watch..
    BTW, I’m now following you ^^ otakus unite!

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